Nyepi & Nadya

Life has been moving at a rapid pace post Bali Spirit Festival…

I had a brilliant time celebrating my Finnish friend Anne’s birthday by seeing Dustin Thomas and Xavier Rudd play live in Uluwatu with a backdrop of sunset and waves at a Cleaner Waters fundraiser at The Surf Villas.

I did a two day intensive training of Ashtanga Yoga and Shamanism with Danny Paradise and Anastasis and these two are really amazing teachers with the beautiful Bishaka aka Nannapat Tanapatita assisting and showing some of her shadow yoga kung fu moves too. If you go to Danny’s website you can see the wonderful retreats they are offering in Europe this summer including a week aboard a luxury sailboat, which will no doubt be amazing!

I shot a music video for Danny’s new song “Everyday Grace” it’s a funky dancy discoish tune and I am excited about the video which also features Anastasis dancing and Bibi doing some kungfu moves- a community creative project. We also shot some live jams of a few other Danny Paradise songs so more good stuff to come there too…totally inspired by and loving that crew…my shamanic soul family. It feels like I am still on the “Road to Yogini” veering onto “The Road to Shamaness” and I like it a lot!

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Lynne Franks was also in Ubud for the Bali Spirit Festival and a few days afterwards so we got to have some quality time catching up, talking empowerment and chanting “Nam Yoho Renge Kyo” in her garden as well as meeting many of her interesting Ubud/Bali friends (she has many!).

I was invited to attend a water ceremony by the beach in Canggu as part of releasing the past year and preparing for the new year, where people were carrying all sorts of vaguely scary looking shrines and offerings to dip them in the sea, also to be blessed by a priest and then go to collect blessed holy water from the sea. As I moved closer to get some good photographs, a sudden large wave swept me and many others under water taking all my gear underwater too, wallet, camera , phone, dictaphone, chargers, sunglasses etc though I managed to hold my big Nikon out of the water like the lady of the lake carrying excalibur- it was quite a miracle that camera was not destroyed  (the currents can be shockingly strong out here). It was also a powerful reminder of the unpredictable force and strength of mother nature.

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I headed back up to Ubud to attend a party at Lynne Franks’ Ubud Oasis and to catch the divine Nick Wallaki’s Betelnut gig with support from Greta Orion and Radha Divine ( I have grown to love all three of these musicians as they are the shiny local Ubud Music Superstars). Unfortunately though I didn’t make it to that gig in the end as I got heldup at the conscious Goddess gathering at Lynne Franks’ Villa for her last night in Bali and it felt so comforting to be with a familiar friend from London after the whirlwind of the Bali Spirit Festival and the past few months of living a completely different lifestyle away from London…

So for Nyepi (which is a family time to be still at home with no electricity and no talking) I was invited by fashion designer Nadya to join her clan of internationals and expats and stay at Kura Kura a beautiful Yoga retreat right by the beach in Canggu.

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It was a beautiful place to spend the Nyepi days and the group she had gathered were all interesting and kind and intelligent and fun.

I felt a lot of gratitdue for being included amongst them during this family time.

We went out on the night of the Ogoh Ogohs which made me think of “Where The Wild Things Are” a parade through the streets of handmade monsters or giant sculptures depicting vices and cautionary tales from “Greed” to “Lust” to “Gluttony” it looked like most of the 7 deadly sins were covered by the Ogoh Ogohs too…to scare us all into nightmares and probably into being good viceless people…

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How epic are these depictions of terror? There are some even more scary ones such as the woman sacrificing her baby or the man beating up his wife….I’ll leave those ones to your imagination…needless to say I had totally weird dreams that night!

The following day of peace and quiet involved playing dressup with some creative friends as models including Prehida Permatasari, Lauren Elaine, Dylan Tarn, Mary Manifestor, Michelle and little Jamie all wearing Nadya’s exquisite handmade and reversible creations. Here are some lovely photos from that day- an angelic contrast to the monsters of the night before- scaring the terrors away with our conscious styling!

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Tomorrow I begin a hula hooping adventure with international goddess JAguar Mary and friends…

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I am taking part in a one week hula hoop training and personal empowerment retreat led by international Goddess Jaguar Mary called Sacred Circularities

I will be writing a daily diary reflection blog about the experience up on here so read all about it by following this link for a week Sacred Circularities Blog

See you on the other side of the circle…

 

 

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Kundalini, Naturopathy & A little bit of Bahasa

I’m inspired to post about the Kundalini yoga which I have been practising for the last few days with Dani Durgani aka Jiwanpal Kaur. My friend and neighbour golden Oneness Goddess and devotional singer Harmony Polo invited me to take an early morning class with her and in that first class my kundalini energy was activated but it got stuck in the manipura chakra more specifically at my liver which began to hurt and metaphorically “speak to me”. Now chakras are one of the most fascinating aspects of yoga to me and Kundalini Yoga very much focuses on connectiing, charging and balancing the chakras and energy body, moreso then other forms of yoga it feels a more spiritual energy-based yoga tradition. I love exploring the different styles of yoga on offer out here and around the world, also  continuing to learn from amazing teachers. This current exploration of Kundalini is definitely raising my vibrations and that is very much in line with the intention I set for 2014 (see New Year’s Eve blog). I have also been introduced to the beautiful healing sounds of Snatam Kaur which is played at the end of a Kundalini yoga class.

At breakfast after the morning class, a fellow yogi suggested I write a letter to my liver and ask it for any information it might be trying to send me.

So I did it, I wrote a letter to my liver and it told me to “Say YES to speaking my truth as frequently as possible, despite being pretty certain at times that someone may react negatively to what they hear. Allow others the power to own their reactions, it is not doing anyone a favour to be nice in an attempt to help them avoid pain. Speak your heart-centered truth more and often and ask friends and loved ones for support in this process. Express a support of this authentic truth-speaking in others as well. Invite it in as a normal way of communicating and co-create a conscious community of truth speaking, heart centered relationships and collaborations. Also please say NO to alcohol and sugar. One glass of champagne or very good red wine as a rare exceptional treat is fine but no beer guzzling when you are surfing at the beach and no cocktails when you are celebrating or jetsetting. Beer is fattening and cocktails are just sugary poison.”

Wow what clear demands this dear liver was asking for! I know that it was also shifting and clearing some gunk from the Cloves I had developed a sudden and very irritating penchant for since returning to Bali.

I was really upset with myself for returning to smoking and filled with shame about it. I somehow justified it to myself that they weren’t really cigarettes because they were made with cloves and tasted like sugar and cinnamon and smelled delicious like incense…but that was complete and utter bullshit and the underlying truth is that I was feeling very anxious about the mountainous video workload I have built up- I am speedy with shooting but slow with editing…anxious about my new housing situation after a dissapointing return and not ending up living with the friends I had planned, hoped and wanted to rent with here so ending up alone in a big house for a few weeks ( ha could be a lot worse!)  and a need to negotiate boundaries around the new people who had been proposed to move into the spare bedrooms…flatmates yikes…space invadors yikes…not being in control of my home live and work space yikes…it all triggered me to the max and got me falling back on an old familiar crutch of smoking again in a lame attempt to claim my space or starting hurting myself into consciousness or something…

Anyway I was sitting in a warung puffing on a clove and feeling so mad at myself for doing so at the same time. I struck up a conversation with a women at the tbale next to me who happened to be a retreat leader/creator, a naturopath, acupuncturist, and hypnotherapist specialising in quit smoking therapy…ANGEL!

“I really need your help right now” is what I said. I told her I had been praying for someone like her to help me kick these nasty cancer sticks to the curb…I had been doing so well without them for months and in just one casual puff I was once again hooked for a few days…

So that was 2 weeks ago and a few days later she came over to my house and we recorded her doing an empower hypnotherapy session around how disgusting cigarettes, cloves and any toxins are….I asked her to please suggest that when I may get  acraving to smoke, that I have the consciousness to really feel into my emotions and ask “what am I feeling right now” to name it internally and to repeat the mantra “this too shall pass”. This process gets easier as the cravings diminish but it’s quite amazing how the addiction can restart after only a few days of unconsciously smoking.

So Here I am on day 6 now smoke free and back on the “smoking is disgusting” mindset, the hypnotherapy session definitely helped me, the mantra I chose of “This too shall pass” has been overriding any possibility of running to a shop and buying some cloves to smoke. I am determined to live a smoke free life and to ride these waves of emotion and cravings into consciousness, into knowing exactly what I am feeling when I am feeling it and not numbing any underlying pain with toxins. I really am getting to a place where I love myself too much to treat this body temple badly with toxins like alcohol and cigarettes. I love feeling conscious and alive too much to pollute my physical and energy body with toxic gunk and I love life too much with all it’s wonder and synchroncity and kismet…to shorten my time here on earth in this beautiful curious feminine form.

So far it has worked… I don’t want to smoke, I tam back to thinking it’s disgusting, I can override any cravings and am paying even greater attention to what is really going on inside me which of course also gives me greater empathy for the silent struggles that others may be grappling with too.

If you are in Bali or want to work with Anne Maree on skype to quit smoking or with a number of other things she is an expert in treating. Checkout her website here Bali Vitality

After working through that over these last few days I have just noticed how the intense kundalini exercises strengthen my aura and energy body. Something seems to be shifting in the way people to relate to me. I have noticed that I am becoming more in demand as a photographer, videographer, writer, marketing consultant and just generally being invited to more meetings and rendezvous….getting asked out on dates and a high dose of romance injected into my life would be fun… though I’m currently finding myself wary of socialising ( so how can anyone ask me out?) and short on time ( so how can I go out?) as I have piled up a mountain of videos to edit and now have a greater need to use the word “NO” effectively and not to waste time on storytelling excuses as to why I am using the word NO but just to say it strongly and clearly with love and then let go of FOMO (Fear OF Missing Out) or wanting to be liked by people. I know that using a strong heartfelt NO creates more space for me to lovingly apply myself fully and effectively to anything I say YES to…such as romance ha!

I have also become more energised and pro-active although the challenge for me right now is tapping into the lucid, creative intuitive side that loves to and needs to write (a script) right now…I am charged up on the doing/being present energy and I’m working on reconnecting a bit with my loner, emo super creative side- so perhaps thats where I need to do some more serious work…on being present in this world fully proactive and firing on all cylinders yet still very connected to my dreamy, intuitive nature and imagination…

I know I am most creative when I spend a lot of time alone but this is of course quite a lonely process too…so perhaps the world is throwing some big challenges at me right now like “step up to it lady- this is your time to both make shit happen and come up with great ideas and creations”. Always up for a challenge I am rising to it.

Also super excited to get involved with this year’s Bali Spirit Festival. With an inspiring lineup of world famous musicians, artists,speakers and yoga teachers it will be an action-packed week long experience for all those lucky enought to be out in Bali at that time March 19-24th some tickets still available!

I did my first private Indonesian Bahasa lesson yesterday with a lovely teacher called Ibu Ayu and it is a super challenging language filling me with admiration for any expats who learn to speak Bahasa- am I really going to manage it? Seems to me that there are some familiar links in some of the words to spanish and latin which helps me to grasp it a bit better, but so many words with difficult vowel sounds to explain a simple thing…will it stick? Let’s see…. I started writing some phrases down and got into a deep discussion with the teacher about some of it and ended up writing down this little chunk of words in English and in Bahasa.

Saya Panulis, Film Producer, Fotografer dan Guru Yoga

Ubud adalah tempat yang bagus untuk belajar banyak hal tentang hidup, seperti seni kebahagiaan.
Ibu Ayu bertanya “Bagaimana caranya?”
Jawaban saya: Selalu bersyukur. Setiap kesempatan itu berharga.
Ibu Ayu bertanya “Baik kebahagiaan maupun kesedihan?”
Jawaban saya:”Pelajaran tersembunyi

In English:

I’m a Writer, Filmmaker, Photographer and Yoga Teacher

Ubud is a good place to learn many things such as the art of happiness.

Ibu Ayu asks “How to be happy?”

I say ” By practising gratitude. Every moment is precious”

Ibu Ayu asks “both happiness and sadness are precious?”

I say “Yes. Lessons in disguise”.

Well this seemed to make sense at the time and between trying to absorb a multitude of Bahasa phrases ( most of which I have forgotten today) it was fun to try communicating a deeper conversation between English and Bahasa.

Early today prompted by a video an amazing friend shared on facebook…I sat down to write a free flow on the themes of Integrity, Sexuality, Desire and Boundaries.

Wow such powerful themes to write about and certainly more than a books worth of material if I were to write about just those themes…very revealing.

I am very interested in dialogue and to collect stories on these themes with other single people, people who are walking a conscious path, people who are leading accountable lives as teachers, people choosing to live alternative or unconventional lifestyles-  a sort of educational sexual Ted Talk/Debate….as a topic sexuality, desire and integrity hasn’t really reached mainstream media yet has it? The subject of the power of sexual energy and the multitude of ways to channel and master sexuality and desire are surely fascinating to many on the solutions and magnified life experiences such mastery can create…anyway that’s for another blog perhaps….an exploration of Tantra!

Whilst writing on the themes of sex and sexuality I am of course listening to Dakas/Dakinis/Tantrikas Deva Premal, Miten and Manose

Also wanted to share some images which I recently shot in a lush jungle garden for a collective world music funk jam band based in Bali called “Garden Underground”.

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Garden Underground visionary Producer & Bali Sprit Festival Music Director Rob Webber

Also excited to share an idea for crystal healing “Conflict Resolution” jewellery that came to me in a flash download and that I shared with friend, author and healer Jelila (who I have been learning a lot about crystal and energy healing from over the past few months) Well our co-creation of green agate for understanding, rose quartz for soothing and fresh water pearls for divine wisdom has gone intoo production and I am the proud owner of the first two pretty prototype samples. You can order your own to wear and bring awareness to/clear away any inner or outer conflicts or as a perfect gift for a friendship that may need some healing. Click on the image below for a direct link to Jelila’s online shop.

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Now I have some serious homework to do…back to the documentary script-writing!

May your days and nights be full of love in all it’s many forms…

Bye for now